I’m 23 and I’ve been bullied my entire life so I guess that’s why I don’t care bout anything or anyone anymore. Reading other people’s revelations has really proven to me that there is no escape except death. Tiggerz65te@gmail.com. Am I smelling a little bacon. Achetez neuf ou d'occasion I don’t know why but I’ve got lot of problems I don’t know how to overcome them but I juz needed some hope to live , and I’m barely tried to kill myself 2 times but unsuccessful . thank you natacha and all the others who say what they are experiencing. I mourn the absence of joy on my life..but in remembering that I HAVE, and ANYONE in that deep – WILL come out the other side gives such HOPE. This should be a sing that you need to get this addressed to a professional immediately. Nothing like it to me. When we are there – we need the CONSTANT – DAILY reminder that it WILL HAPPEN – it WILL pass. Any advice or insight anyone could give me would be greatly appreciated. 10 JerusalemMaster KG. Of course, escape also means many things to many people, and it’s understandable when escape means death, means suicide – when you think there is no other means available. I don’t believe in it at all and in anyway. I mean nothing to the world, i’m an insignificant dot on the surface of the earth. Who knows but I guess you will make those decisions for the rest of us. I hope you find the help you need. I have been ruined and wish only to be able to annhilate all things so that there will be no more pain or suffering ever again. I’ve tried therapy, meds. and just say that’s the end. Good luck and fight the good fight. YOU ARE IMPORTANT NOT HIM A sick brain lies to you. What I meant about the medications, Dr’s, need, availability etc. im almost at the point where idc what happens to me, if i fail school, get kicked out of my house or id i die. I would end it now but i don’t have the courage to do so. Suicide Self-Assessment Scale – How Suicidal Are You? I can’t work because of my BP and physical problems. Nothing effects you good or bad. I thought I was the only one who felt this way. But what is the point. He’s lucky to have you. You will find what you are looking for. Again good luck. Please remember I and I believe MJC, Natasha and almost all here really know your fear and your other feelings and how terrible this BP crap is. I won’t be a part of that. Believe me I know the pain. I hear you maribel, I dont know whats becoming of myself. To them cancer can affect them but they are too good for MI as some imaginary god makes them special. I do hope though to be less sad in the future and to die just not so sad. I live in the highest crime area in the entire city I live in. I personally get relief from that kind of discussion. I feel like I’m far too gone and I’m better off dead if I can’t even retrieve my zest for life. Personally I don’t see myself lasting at most more than a couple more years as my family dies off and my financial situation continues to deteriorate. I have a really small car and they had a huge truck.I know I never would have walked away from that had I hit them. This feeling might be a symptom of a psychological disorder that you might not be aware of. 7 3SEXIndochine. i dont wanna kill myself cuz i dont want my mom feeling blamed for my death, its not her fault i just dont wanna breath anymore. Grateful that your shared your experience. I have turned (back) to religion in the hopes that it will help me to find meaning in my suffering. What I would not do to feel manic right now ! Please let me know how you you are doing from time to time (I guess through this site). Hope all works out for you and your man and that life is good to both of you. is this. It is not a reflection on your person in any way, shape or form. He doesn’t want to talk, he feels overwhelmed, and I don’t want to add to his burden. Is it common sense. I’m scared. If he isn’t involved it’s his loss unless of course there are reasons for his bad behavior. We are all human but the expectations and so on are all different. A few months later a for a brief moment, my brain felt felt like it came out of it to a more normal state, but then went back to the dead state. Sooner rather than later. The thing I want to say though is that some of those thoughts are lies. She has pushed all my friends away and she herself spends all day on her phone. That is a true path to ignorance and group think as well as control by others. And instead I felt like he sucked my soul right of me and now all I can do is ignore it and provide for my kids. Retrouvez I'm Dead Inside Depression Awareness: Graph Paper Notebook - 0.25 Inch (1/4") Squares et des millions de livres en stock sur Amazon.fr. I know how you people feel. Perhaps it is not selfish to want to die or kill yourself. If painting clown faces around your navel makes you happy or relieves you, –Do it. I can’t see the point in even washing my face or brushing my teeth….. US LGBTQ Youth (the Trevor Project): 1-866-488-7386, US Veterans Crisis Line: 1-800-273-8255 (press 1), Canada: 1-800-SUICIDE OR help lines and centers by province OR 911, Australia: 13-11-14 (lifeline) or 1-800-55-1800 (kids help line for 5-25 yrs old), These contacts are not confidential and many abusive police show up in response. Have hope, I am giving you my e-mail so you know you have a friend fighting the same fight. But you said you believe in god. And I know that escaping that feeling and the associated pain is bloody high on my to-do list. I haven’t been to church since both of my parents passed away. It’s like telling someone what it feels like to have a baby. i too am sorry you are as phuqued up as i am. I am a man and know little about it but have read it can be quite severe. IT IS a battle…Like an invisible and silent war that only you’re capable of experiencing. My life is so empty. Your life can be worth living again. that hurt never totally leaves. Have a nice day!! (and just as important, my general misconceptions about the illness and treatments). Proving you are not of low intelligence. No offense meant here also. I don’t have aspirations, any that I did have have diminished. I am grateful for Will’s comments because they felt like they were getting at the root of a bigger issue. Kate Middleton shows off VERY long locks in video call with NHS staff as she 'sets... Can YOU spot the winter driving hazards in this puzzle? Surprise! Just take one day at a time. If this world were such a lovely place, we wouldn’t need police and armed forces to protect us. Your words however made me feel like I am not alone. Do I need to contact the services on his behalf? As in is it your fault because of the god(s), their morality and so on, and on. People share their jaw-dropping 'one in a million' stories in viral TikTok trend -... Auschwitz survivor, 97, celebrates her first walk outside in a month after making a 'miraculous recovery'... 'Divorce him!' It is however a spiritual issue. I believe these types of control are part of a bigger picture that dehumanizes and continues the stigma of the mentally ill. We are to irresponsible to make our own mistakes and to own guns and to handle our own money to decide what if any medications we need, etc. I’m sure YOU understand that. Problems with that my daughters about to do HSC exams. I have no idea what is going on inside me … I just feel down, sick, want ever so much to be dead, and yet disgusted with myself for my feelings … as I have a lovely daughter at the house who tries to understand. I think your views and your advice is highly irrational and quite dangerous. Designed by Elegant Themes | Powered by WordPress. Including this short escape. The emptiness I feel is indescribable, I have a Fiancée who I’m pushing away with my craziness and two amazing little boys who I adore whilst feeling so selfish that I even feel this way makes me feel sick to the bones as why would anybody with a descent job, partner has a descent job, two amazing kids, my mrs has a loving family who I adore and make me feel like one of them even feel empty and like I’m dying inside?? How people like these make it well into adulthood with such magical beliefs will always amaze me. It is normally used as method to for those who don’t agree with another to stop the debate cold in its tracks by claiming something is “inappropriate” or not relevant to the subject at hand. As to owning a gun where I Live in PA. it’s no harder than buying a ham sandwich. Then I have to put on this mask to cover up my emotions so that my family doesn’t worry. My kids are my world and I did at a point think of suicide, but that would be selfish of me. I buy my glasses online for $39.00 I buy and modify all my car parts to fit my needs. said goodbye without his reason and to this day, I still haven’t heard from him. The emptiness………. I would consider the absence of pleasure (anhedonia) a severe sign of depression and, in that case, I really don’t know what option you have other than working with a psychiatrist in search of a successful treatment. Whether or not you continue to blame yourself for not being able to do something is actually where the selfishness lies. I love your site Natasha, it is the best one I have found IMO so far. What I’m saying is that help is out there and it’s a much better answer than death. No one is in any position to decide what anyone else reads nor to even review or put themselves in any position to do so. They are in my opinion definitely helping, the evidence is of course only anecdotal. but i am trying to hang in there (no pun intended). I don’t know what the policy is on this website or blog, but I have found a wonderful community of people who suffer as we do. Because somehow in all this nothingness, there exists pain. Would they be as strong as us? The love is floundering in the depths of darkness but it’s there. Depression can become severe if you don’t get it addressed and this sing is also one of its symptoms. Including those who are not considered rational enough to handle it. As well have never done heroin but don’t know its other downsize other then not being to be able to get the product already acclimated to. There’s 50 million other things to talk about w/o offending any bipolar people here who do believe. But I’m so unhappy, overwhelmed, I don’t have any friends. I don’t want to go anywhere or do anything or be around people. Don’t think I am not capable of defending myself physically or logically against those like you who use these tactics. I really care about you and others. I don’t mean to offend you or to ‘censor’ you, but please be mindful that what you do post may contribute to how a person is dealing with whatever phase they’re in right now. I really wish that it was an option. For me it isn’t just the pain and emptiness. I know exactly how you feel. my upbringing, along with my emotional issues really had an effect on my childhood. Youve now found the staple t-shirt of your wardrobe. The only way to make a big decision like that is to talk openly about it. I have no one to turn too. Never content, always devouring, why can’t I kill them? If someone wants to kill himself or herself, they will certainly find a way, but I’m not going to be pointing to it. Still agree with your original post in full. I know the excruciating pain that is left behind after someone that you love takes their life. They are like children and very naive and must be quite sheltered or perpetually bury their heads in the sand or similar. To me, it’s sort of like someone removed the contents of my chest and left a gaping void where there is nothing left but a painful, sucking black hole. I dont feel crazy just lost really. if there’s a next time, it will work. I don’t usually like cliche’s but this one is great. Some people should never have been born and I’m one of those. Unfortunately, it doesn’t work out like that in real life. Look. I only know that feeling a gaping void inside my chest is one of the most painful states of being that I know. You see, I try to make this a safe space for people, especially people with mental illnesses, and things that I don’t believe contribute to that, like name-calling and suicide method details, are not appropriate for the environment here. oldest • newest. Personally if I had large amounts of money stashed away somewhere that I could easily access I would totally give up. The past few weeks my world has turned upside down for no reason. You have an illness that is your brain just like me and face it and stop with the childish imaginary man in the sky. Did you read it so that you could decide if it was “appropriate” so you could decide for others. I had it once and there is nothing like it and I wish it for everyone. This as you might know is usually a control problem. You know what they say about pi_____ on someones shoes and the rain. of view is not to think he doesn’t wish to still be intimate. I think I would believe it. WN. It may feel like there's no hope but that's because it difficult to think clearly in these type of situations. I’m sick of being strong! to Natasha. I pray to God to give me something to care about, some cause to give back to. However, though I have made it clear to those who purport to love me in spite of my mental/emotional illness(es), I may not have the strength to carry on. Yes you are a crybaby. I felt more positive. d, You maid me cry with your words . If so I apologise on behalf of myself for the misery you are reading!!! I have to live for them. When I was younger I had friends that would cut themselves and I could never understand why. A Journal for Writing down Your Days of Depression. I think even my specialist is having problems dealing with it. Buy Dead Inside Depression Emo Pastel Goth Pullover Hoodie: Shop top fashion brands Hoodies at Amazon.com FREE DELIVERY and Returns possible on eligible purchases As time went on I started to feel the love and passion leave me. it’s literally life killing. But I feel dead. How do i cope up with the situations that’s affecting my studies. My goal is to get to the truth. Would you ever consider that somehow, you could have stopped the cancer that took someone away from you, or that an accident could have been prevented “if only” you were there to make sure it would have never happened? made it to the other side, saw my husband. Not because he is an asshole, but just because I don’t care. They still need me. I believe what I posted was quite relevant to the discussion at hand and not instructions on suicide. He’s apparently with someone new now, figures. I realized how bad it’s gotten when I (actually my hubby) forced me to finally go to work today. Take the drugs the doctors – even if they are idiots – prescribe to you? i sure can relate to so many here on this subject. i dont know.. what i am doing.??? Makes me wonder if I’m dead A very, very terrible consequence of the undervalued and dehumanized people in these countries. I have to live with it. Schild Dead Inside Hinweis Depression Traurig Trauern Innerlich Tot Unglücklich - Acheter ce vecteur libre de droit et découvrir des vecteurs similaires sur Adobe Stock Otherwise seems like a good way to die without suicide. Bipolar depression IS NOT depression…. I’m a priveledged white fuck living in america with a loving family and if I knew my death was tomorrow I would greet it. How would you feel if you taught someone how to drive and they died in a car accident. will.nist: I would like you to look up one thing for me. It feels like nothing. Actually correction, tired! You should know that mandatory reporting is a legal requirement of many professions who deal with people in the social, health, education etc sectors. I feel guilty because I don’t give my all to my husband because I just feel dead inside. Do you just follow and protect yourself? It was just part of the larger discussion and nothing more. No longer care … The neurons of hunger, lust, greed and hatred…. This is immoral. Life is hard. They say that life flashes before your eyes when something like that happens, I got a void, no emotion, no will to survive, no fear, no nothing. Interesting that you say 27. Like my title says, i feel dead inside. Im so glad, and sad, that other people have experienced this too! When I die no one will know these thoughts other than those who also will never be heard. Since you have such opinions and feel it’s so openly OK to abuse others. what a great support!!! As well I believe Phil was doing the tearing down but in an acceptable (not to me) drive by way. I felt encouraged. Apparently, the one who is suffering the most is always the most selfish because they sought relief the only way they knew how. or a fool which most in my opinion are, the drugs are not. Jody, I’ll leave you probably an empty reply you have hear a million times. Your publishing of this makes ME grateful for every day that I am not THERE. I feel guilty because I have this depression and probably have given it to them. Anxiety and Depression That Can Make You Feel Dead Inside. So all the friends in this blog…I am sharing my experience..u may or may not agree as per ur choice but I would like to request plz try. That’s bad also. Therefore NOT appropriate on this blog. Moreover, people search for ways to kill themselves _every_day_ on this blog and I refuse to give them specific ideas of how to do so here. Do you read books to judge for others what they should. Are YOU bipolar or do you just look around for people who are for cheap thrills. My brother took his life in 2012. No one fault. If you ever want to talk personally just ask and I’ll give you my e-mail address as I believe most here would. I love her. Could always use a new person to talk to. It’s like you’ve retreated died & entered the depths of hell,itself. Actually, the environment in my house makes it more disastrous. Maybe not. If wasnt for my family i wouldnt even have food on the table to eat, this bothers me so much cause i know i have potential to live by myself proper if it wasnt for the rampant disease tearing my flesh inside. This isn’t me and I don’t know what to do about it, I love my family and just wish I was the happy, funny guy my mrs fell in love with to make everyone happy and that my boys grow up knowing the real me instead of a psychotic freak that I’ve become. No one understands and never will . I dont feel alright. It is life snuffing and for every battle you win, a huge amount is lost.. a huge amount of your spirit. Set me in front of young love. Please explain if I’m missing something. It started when I was 27. Even I have someone who loves me most dearly and yet I don’t care about myself. The only time I feel better is when I talk to people through voice or video call. How about a little about yourself. may stop you. I would have drove right under that truck and decapitated the top part of my car and probably myself also. It helps some knowing that I’m not alone here. If they knew how silly and patronizing they sounded to us I would hope they would keep their twisted and again childish misinformed opinions to themselves until they grow up a little. Wounds that tear and itch and bleed. She made me feel happy, and could make me laugh. Perhaps it is best to ask yourself how you would feel if you found out that someone actually took their life exactly as you’ve outlined it? This is usually to maintain power, money, control as I always say and almost always has that intent. Take for example these ridiculous holocaust deniers. Try getting involved with a local charity. It hit bottom 5 days ago. they never showed my sister and I any affection either and I think that’s why we both turned out so cold. Feeling like death has already taken me and I’m still here. Please don’t dismiss me, my ideas or anything else. Moderation is censorship. WN. Will definitely try this. Since my dream of becoming doctor couldn’t come true since then I have just learned how to kill your desires. Depression is many things to many people. I feel so hurt all the time. I never in my life seen or felt so much pain physically, mentally, and emotionally. I’m just a selfish self-centered piece of worthless trash who probably feels sorry for himself. The Dr’s have tried different meds on me, but nothing has been able to touch this. <3 Take care of yourself, Left very long reply and was censored in whole. I can usually,however,write it. The brain has gone through some chemical change or shock or something, and it needs time to recover. There is no god, no proof of one and ZERO evidence of one. I think you should me mindful of what id you take and how You respond to others who give there real name, sticks to one id, and shows their weaknesses. 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